veri veri depressed...the usual self has been gone or overshadowed...

went to mai's party yesterday den to temple, supposedly in high spirits, juz a mere lovesick threshold has caused mi to lose my tantrum so easily, can't believe it, becoz of a gal tt i like and tink of, caused mi to lose temper and gave "barbaric" comments.....juz felt veri furious when my anger has been sparked.....lovesick, i dun want to tink abt her one, can't help it it was as if so terrible tt i cant live without her like tt, onli her can control my everything or wat, anyone reading this and mi myself will certainly scoff, weird stuffs to type abt rite, but it's true man, certainly authentic!!!! where is the normal ming chien hu alwaes like to be cheerful and smile? where is him, i have to find him....or wat nowadays, i alwaes put on a wide mask of smiles but inside mi was filled wif gloominess and depression....wat happens to mi...is this the outcome of the burdens of lovesickness and studies.....17 yrs old hu have to suffer such kind of torment!!! veri harsh, wat is the prob man???? now, i lose the control over my emotions, haiz well i will need to tt usually cheerful ming chien(xiao ming) back, where is him????