haiz....a day of boring....pissed off by things tt causes mi to get paranoid....paranoid about so many things, feeling better now, haiz 6 weeks to go to SWOTVAC...thinking of so many things since this yr, last yr i felt so carefree, maybe i shld say this yr i am much jyu an si wei haha thinking of the dangers even though i am in a safe position...how to say man....am i problematic these days or wat..feel so inferior or relieved....if it is relieved, wat is it abt? lawrence said he had not seen mi going out wif gals b4 wat the prob? well studies, another thing to worry about, my parents exerting pressure on mi, causing detrimental effects on mi.....i noe tt they have high expectations of mi but tt adds a load of burden i need to carry....will i rate the effect of this burden "CATASTROPHIC"......sometimes hearing about my mum's nagging about gals and relationship made mi feel veri sianx...feel tt i am in a dilemma rite now shld i give up a relationship or pursue it?
66 days to go back to sg, back to meet my sg friens, i had this mentality tt i shld go back sg this dec and i have den have 2 mths to get "relationship" or wat, but i am confused now wif my feelings and so many stuffs....contemplating these days, other than this and studies, there are so many things i have been contemplating about haiz....dilemmaa.......i am outta here....
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