yes, boring mi!!!! the youtube released the first half of the bleach episode 119....guess those bleach fans out there, will like to find out wat happen to Ikkaku after he released his bankai bah!!!!! i have to say his bankai is COOL!!!!! heard frm reno tt his BANKAI is second to only one person out of those hu noes how to release the second level of zanpoktu (did i get tt rite?).....well, upon watching the first half of episode 119, i sort of getting myself into deep sense of thought abt everything in general.....my thing in mind started to surface: wat am i searching for? How do I come abt having this thing in my mind?
You noe, i have commenced having these questions materialized in my head ever since i watched bleach episode 109....hmmm drooling over the idea....well, my review on tt particular episode: Kariya came frm a poor background....(shinigamis strived to eradicate all bountos, ran'tao saved him frm all these savages put up by the shinigamis, Kariya was a young boi then)....throughout his past, frm the moment he acquired bounto powers to the time he joined other bountos to go against Quincys.....he saw defeats and defeats and defeats, he saw failure all of the time....TT's y he wanna get more powerful....absorb living souls tt totally contravene the obligations set up by the founding BOuntos....he sought power to change his own fate, and wanna see himself as the Supreme being....He put his own fate before the race of Bounto....He wanna be seen as the most powerful being in the universe who lifted up the race of bounto....While Ichigo sought power to protect his friens, he sought for a turn of fate.....hmmm drooling over tt subtle distinction between these 2 terms....this is the answer to the common question mi and my "da-ge" wanting to seek....(not tt we are weird)....for those out there who watched this episode, shld noe kariya was defeated in the end....well, ichigo and co. then realised Fate is actually a big wheel (with us being the cogs) and not a line extending forward. Rukia asked "shld we resign ourselves to Fate or break free of it?" drooling over this distinction and trying to figure out my stance towards Fate and also bearing the same question Rukia asked....
Searching my purpose in life is something i might consider doing.....two yrs ago, i rmb watching this show depicting HanWudi (true recount, so history lovers i suggest u to watch this), he said to one of his generals, every generation has its own purpose in life....put it in my own words, authoring the line slightly, every people has its own purpose in life....And yes but, WAT IS TT PURPOSE? yes, wat is my purpose of living? Wat i wanna achieve in life, you noe....yes again, 2 yrs ago, NDP 2005, i rmb they asked many children regarding their aspirations....Then lastly, we came across this child (he said, "I want to be a Prime Minister!!!")....the crowd was scoffing over the idea.....in a realistic world, there will be a lot of pple doubting tis and tt.....even mi, yes, i have my own ambitions, everyone has it but depending on the ambition you have, for mine, pple doubt i can fulfil my dreams....i noe there are pple out there who have been doubted....Yes, as these doubts motivate u to prove them wrong, this fuels u to affirm your ambitions....A strong message to all: if u have an ambition but beyond doubt, go achieve it and nv let eveybody doubt u....if u dare to aspire, go for it, dare to strive hard for it!!!!
Yes, for mi i have set out to achieve tis dream since a long time.....recently i did sth i tot would be one of the best opportunities to achieve tis dream.....however, i might be feeling uneasy in terms of ethics and conscience....whether is it a right thing or a wrong thing i have done???? Racking my brain over tis question.....but i did tis out of selflessness.....i have clear conscience for tt.....well, a long entry abt life philosophy....felt better upon whining....shld be long enuff or else, i can help to cure pple having insomina lolx....all rite tata outta here
